sick in 2020

hellow. happy 2020~

come login add some stuffs as well. a private insta, facebook, twitter kinda thing.

update je, its ok. its just you and i reading *WINK*

john's no such thing

in the midst of working at home, just clearing tabs overloaded with maybe i'll need it later tabs of work, games, social medias, shopping, more work, this slice of memory appeared. these are the half of the tabs left after clearing

so whats wrong with a little trip down the memory lane right? hee
some photos were missing, lost by the loading site, some videos gone forever, thoughts raced thinking is it time? has it been over 10 years? is there a shelf life for these photos until they disappear? if they disappear, and nobody remembers, did it even matter? theres no new ones coming up, no updates, no stories of each other.

yet there they were, photos and words to a long ago. photos where money was tight, body was light, smile was bright and hearts in good vibes. making effort to meet even though busy schedules were just schedules we could blow off cos meeting was more important. no 1 week 2 weeks planning and never happening or no time to spare at all cos too busy, no contacting just for your own benefit, no contacting just cos of seeing something in social media, no long due updates of each other.

a little bit of update then, if you are still reading

got a bike - phantom ta200, bout to die this year cos of COE
can drive a car - army benefits hhahahahafuckdbahaha
got a very useful skill in studies related field - i can make houses look good.
godson from debs best friend x2! - goddamn lovable bundle, he calls me pakbear and deb makbear
sis got married but thats a long story - hais
went for my solo trip before i reached 30 - japan baby osaka tokyo winter 2018 heee
engaged to deborah, u guys remb her - almost 10 year anniv, hopefully getting married on 10th year. 10102020 savethedate?

moto moto

i do drive actually just cant afford a car lulz

da skill

travelling alone started off shitty sick
but it was the best exp.
would go again

YUP ENGAGED HOH

milts engaged, getting married this year in about 4 months - i love the two of them together. its like double the cheekiness

syaq and chewy got married, and ali damn cute sia - nice to finally hang out those nights w milt n rw

wills riding a rxk zhng to cafe or sth. made a band w prahlad and uhhh forgot his name - they performing this friday at parklane carpark but i at jb. its ok, he's with who he's meant to be

leonard got married to huiying and had damien, bought a damn ass expensive house thats worth much more aft MOP - nv give chance at all to catch up, he racing through life but damien omg cute giler

elijah became a finance guy i think? - unsure ah when i game w him and asked

irving studied in australia and i think he got married? - man that guy more handsome now sial a

augustine became a businessman - from civil engineering to pastry to fnb to businessman, this guy talent.

sipei still as pretty as she was 10 years ago - though now got some sorta charm to it? damn ass similar to a colleague of mine though

stella i dont know sia? - really dunno.

no idea about marian too - i think she married?

VANESSA omg also i dunno its like she disappeared totally - i cant even find her



yirong's really gone, her good friend contacted me on the 11th year cos i posted about her birthday every year. told me about her final location. i went a few weeks back with deb. for 11 years..i couldnt believe it, thought it was just some elaborate ploy to isolate herself. all this while i was hoping to bump into her somewhere in this world and that would be it, seeing her alive and well would totally eradicate this void. then i saw the stone. i saw her. like some shitty confirmation, i realised, there was nothing else i could do for her anymore. anything else i were to do like bring flowers or wipe the stone, it wouldnt matter. if u guys wanna pay final respects, you got my number, i'll give you deets or may even go together. havent changed it, never will. if you ever feel alone, like how she always felt, please, never forget, though she never did forget, that i will always be here.




with that said, if any of you ever read this again, 10 years...is a really long time. all of us have moved on, yet it'd be pretty magical yet unrealistic for all of us to get together again, not like we have to be like how we were in the past, but maybe, just for a little dinner somewhere whilst we reminisce and catch up, who knows we could be friends again.

for the souls i miss,

you're missed

many many hot days.

but still many ppl trying to make good the word "sunshine"

anws. on a more quirkier note, farah suggests a visit to the toy musuem at arab street. $2 entry sia

mahallll rather buy doublecheeseburgerrrrr...anws. it's quite cute. but something abt that place la i dun like. like kena exploited. all those indie omfg cool kids spreading like hiv. 

maybe this friday the nerves gg audition.

and yea. who got idea of band name. cant do the nerves uh dok..

the barny love story once shared in their life

how long ago this blog started out, when we were still anxiously planning for vanneh's bday celebration. Sitting in this dark small and cozy room got my fingers and brain some coordinating moves. Each and every post my eyes scanned through, it only add on the little heavy smile plastered on my massive head. Hehe, each and one of us are morphing into , something else so massive never been seen before, be it bigger smaller nicer better unicer hotter smarter cuter adorable maturer louder softer cuddlier hunkier further nearer.

It's not silly. oh no, yes, it is. Hehe, coz to be only one of the few who's still giving a damn about this whole thing, is.

Maybe it was the way we laugh ourselves silly throughout the night,

maybe it was the stare we gave one another when in mighty might
maybe it was the candid poised posed plenty of hair n teeth pictures we took

maybe it was the endless minutes we spent sitting around so garangly

maybe it was the all we needed for time out is one another
maybe we all gave a damn to chase away the monday's blue and catch the friday's night

maybe it was the way we were,

indeed so myriad n kaleidoscopic experience. :}}

major cravings for cookie dough red bean pontong milk/bubbletea light hearted big laughters along all the secret spots busy hanging around with no time to rest only to care about later meet where? dear old 0708, oh girlfriends u too. slumberjacko madness all night long.

hello friends =)
ready to roll along? drained n hyped.

with pints n pints of ben&jerry cookie dough love,
chew

i.... just came back.. from the land of the clouds...

we walked.. with the clouds..

it was at the side of my face, brushed past my cold ankle..we were on clouds.

sure it was just humans subject to many forms of g force, but it garnered much endorphins.

much fun.